dear girl who changed my life,
no matter where you are, you will always be my angel.
no matter how long you leave, you will always have my heart.
my love for you will only ever get stronger.. my desire for you will only ever grow.. my utter astonishment of who you are, and how you exist will never cease. you taught me that there was something worth living for.. someone who understands me... someone who i can trust... someone who will love me with everything and not break my heart... someone who feels the connection i have to them... someone who knows i am theirs forever and is willing to embrace that. someone truly magical.. someone special.. someone created just for me.. not just someone, but my Frankie. you created feelings in me only you could understand. you allowed yourself in to my heart slowly and softly without me needing to put my guard up... you took my heart without any complaint, restraint or protest from me. you deserve it. i feel like it was always there waiting for you to collect it.. waiting for the girl who can make it feel alive.. make it feel loved and cherished.
i have waited for you Frankie. i truly thought what i needed a girl to be did not exist.. and then you proved me wrong.
i have waited for you.. and i know that there is only one of you... i cannot lose you now Francis. now that i know what it feels like to find true love.. to find my soul mate.. to find the person who makes me complete... i will never let this feeling go... i will never let my girl go. i can't. i love her.
i miss you Frankie. i miss the way your voice soothes my soul and warms my heart no matter how i am feeling. i miss the way your eyes pull me into a world of beauty in which i could lose hours and days. i miss your smile and it's power to make me truly happy... i miss your beauty hitting me like a punch in the face... always astonishing me as to how someone could ever be that beautiful. i miss the excitement of your skin touching mine. i miss our lips caressing softly together. i miss our fingers locking together. i miss reading your words.. getting long emails and things you have written... i never want us to write just sentences.. or just text messages.. our communication is too beautiful to me to lose it. i miss you Frankie. i miss you so much.
June. never before have i looked forward to a date so much. never before has a single date clouded over everything else post and prior.. never before have i wanted a day to be tomorrow, but to always be tomorrow. to never end. my sister asked me yesterday how many days it was until my birthday.. and instead of saying 10, i said 16. becuase that date and the time leading up to it is all that matters. your smile, your touch, your kiss... all these things will be reunited with your heart and my love. both of which wait, unaltered, for you. forever.
i love you Frankie.
i have no other way of explaining my love like you do... but i could never explain how i feel for you. there would be no feelings without you. my heart would wilt and perish... without you there is no hope or light.. only darkness and misery. i love you. i love you should be enough... but i can't help but feel that nothing i could ever say will ever be enough. nothing could ever do justice to the love i have for you. to my dedication to you forever. i am yours Frankie. my love is yours. my everything, is yours. forever.
i love you baby, i will never stop loving you.
but i need you to do what is right for you. i need you to be healthy in your mind and in your heart. i will never restrain you from doing what you feel comfortable with in your mind.. but please do what is right to keep your precious heart healthy for me. it belongs to me and i need you to take care of it for me.
i love you so much Frankie. i could never truly explain to you how much i love you. how much this feeling dominates over all others. how little the complications bother me.. how little impact they could have on my love.
we are forever Francis, as long as you always want that.
i love you buubuu... xxxxxxxxxxxx
